Mommy Learns

Another year has begun, and with it comes some much needed personal changes. This site has not received the attention I had originally hoped to give it, so my resolutions shall begin here. This year I want to do things differently in order to make myself a better person, and by doing so, make myself a better mother and wife as well.

The reason I wanted to start a blog in the first place was to have a place to unload my day. I need a place to vent and decompress, and through writing, to help learn from all the experiences that drive me crazy on a daily basis. Realistically I know I won’t be able to write here everyday, but that is at least something I can aim for.

Aside from writing there are a few other resolutions on the list:

• Finish a project before starting a new one. I’ve learned that trying to plow through multiple projects at once only manages to frustrate me and it ends up taking twice as long to finish any of them. So, the current project of painting G’s desk chair (although a trivial project in the great scheme of things) will be completed before any others are started.
• I have to start taking my physical appearance seriously. This isn’t so much about wanting to look attractive and doing my hair and makeup, but more about respecting myself enough to not settle for extra weight gain, blotchy skin, or other things that can easily be changed. By taking a little bit more effort with making myself look and feel better physically then hopefully I will feel better mentally and emotionally as an individual and not just as a mother. This resolution has some much more specific goals attributed to it, such as a specific weight loss plan, but that can all be laid out in more detail later.
• Finally, I need to learn a bit more patience. As the sleep deprivation sets it, it becomes harder and harder to hold back my anger and frustration. But I’ve found that by withholding yelling, although difficult in the moment, makes me feel enormously better overall.

I know new years resolution lists are extremely cliche, and are rarely taken seriously come January 10th, but I’ve never really made a list in the past, so maybe by trying something new this year I may actually achieve some much needed changes in my life.